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wodner why i am still here posting
was raining jus now so decided not to go photo taking

lie on bed
thinking....
thinking....
and thinking....


somethings i think i'm really a failure
no matter being a human,
a friend,
or being a bf.

somethings i really think i shouldn't be here
have i came to the wrong world?

i wish to be a person that every loves.
what am i lagging?

there are people saying, wow... cw u r such a nice person
but isit really from their true heart?
or isit just to please me so that i would help them in the future?

friends? what are friends for? i dunno...
i have so many good and best friends
during secondary school.
they call themselves my good buddies,
but what happen when i need help?
what happen after we graduated from sec sch?
where are you guys?

yes, i have 3 good buddy now.
buddy since ITE, but will the history replay again?
i'm scare, i dare not think.
but i still believe them, we will be the best buddies for lives.
thx for being there for me. jj, cq,eric.
they are really nice guys
they will encourge me when i'm down
support me when i need
be there when i'm sad

i'm failure for being a bf too.
5yrs ago had my first gf
for the first time being a bf.
FAILED
broke up after 1mth

now i have a second chance.
i really love her
but i duno if my caring for her is wrong
what should i do?
i know such thing is nobody can teach de
so i oso been trying to be a bf.
just praying that everything will get better
i really dont want to hurt her or anyone

feeling sad now.
going out for a drink with jj later
and chat with him.
really thx tat i have such a good buddies by my side.

thanks....